If only I were not Aquarius

So now you showed interest in me
Though I never felt it when we were near
Did not want to be bribed by your glittering necklace
Coz you know why we broke up

Foolish as I am
Knows who is the one
Tried to lie to myself but could not endure before long
I envy those who spent all for what they pursue
So bravely blind that they see no consequences

Like the most endurable castle
I crumble bit by bit, piece by piece
Strong as I am
Still finds it so hard to carry on
I feel the pain pretending to be happy each day

Let me go home and don’t make my tears drop
Since you know Aquarius have wet eyes
Keep your words back to you
If the next dialogue is about farewell
Forget about reunion which is destined to be even sadder
There is no painkiller at my home
Yet I had the Long Island Ice Tea as cure for half a night
Seeing you leave now or ten years later make no difference
If only I could be a bit more resolved
I would give myself a way out